~foreverhyper

I was recently told that I shall be going away tomorrow, and shan't be back for a week. A family holiday sorta thing.

So I won't get a chance to upload stuff or reply to your comments, or do the questions thing on my journal... I'll miss you guys ._.

Anyway, getting up early tomorrow so I'll go pass out on my bed now. I leave you guys with these:

[link] *has been reduced to drawing pure fanservice*

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Also, I'm sure any GX fans hardcore enough have already seen this: [link] , but I thought I'd post it anyway. It's sung by KENN, Juudai's seiyuu I want this song so bad but I can't find it anywhere ;_;

See you guys in a week! x3

80% of this journal is about a fangirl's insecurities with her age (with some 5D's speculations and GX stuff at the end). You've been warned.

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Tomorrow I turn 18.

*SCREAM*

Then I'll be like, an... ADULT, or something O_O

Until a couple of weeks ago, I seriously never thought for one second that someday I'd be an adult. Me!

4 and half hour left for me to kill myself and die a child... And I still haven't found my perfect suicide pond, with waterlilies and a nice willow tree next to it!

^I'm not psycho ;_;

Did anyone else maybe go through the same mental break-down I'm having right now? None of my real friends did, they're all mature and stuff >.>

*checks your profiles* Nope, half of you are 14...

The only thing I can think of that makes me feel slightly better is the fact that Yuusei is already 18. He's definately older than me. Juudai's probably 20 something now and Yuugi'd be 30-odd. ( THAT's what you're worried about? >.> )

Anyway, I got like, nothing planned for tomorrow. I'll most probably have a nice restaurant dinner with my family and call it a day. Though I'll probably go swimming/shopping with my friends at a later date, it's customary. and are automatically invited ( How come nobody else on dA lives in my area? ;_; )

I wanted a Yami-doll like in LK's videos, but it's a bit late. Maybe Christmas xD

Mental age shall forever be SIX.

</birthday crap>

GX: I need more ideas for the possible-doujinshi still, so here it is again: [link] , any suggestion is much appreciated!

5D's: Typing it up suddenly makes me realize how silly this sounds, but here goes - have you noticed how Yuusei, Rua and Ruka have these doody (my word for cool) patterns on their shirts? I can't help but thinking those patterns are somewhere on the Plot-Device-Dragon. Especially the parts on Yuusei's back and Ruka's sleeves. Jack don't have any though, and Aki, most probably not. Just a general wondering... ment.

Kiriban at 1234 hits, cookies if you're over 18, half an hour left to kill self...

As the title said, this is my first journal! Never thought this day would come...

So yeah, forgive me if I were to do this wrong >_< And if you could read this very very long journal to the end, I'd be very grateful!

Where do I start...

Exams are over! For a while I seriously thought they would never end! I really think I messed up my exams, so very VERY badly. May actually have to stay in school for another year O_O

... But let's forget about that and enjoy the summer, until results day when I jump off the maths corridor after apologising to the sky for failing my parents and teachers...

Moving on... Have you ever drawn something, thought it's the best thing ever, only to find it again in a few weeks and think "what the hell was I thinking"? I get that a lot So there'll be a mass deletion of my stuff. I think I'll call it "The Fanart Massacre of Summer 2008". Because scrapping just won't do.

I missed my 1000th Kiriban because of exams! I had the kiriban sketch ready since before I began revising for real (talk about impatience), or is that not allowed? Are kiribans like the 100 theme challenge thing where you can't use old sketches? Must they be "fresh"? Anyway, I think I'll do one at 1234 hits instead

Now, this is where I was meant to put something about my first dream of Jaden, but that goes on for pages and pages and I'm guessing you guys are bored now. Plus I got tagged to do this fear thing... Click [link] for Jaden-dream-ramble! x3

Below will be me doing the fear thing, so feel free to click the little cross on the top right corner of your window.

I Fear…

[x] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[x] being a parent ( kids hate me! and animals ;_; )
[x] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[x] spiders
[] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 5

[] being touched
[] fire
[x] deep water
[x] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[x] failure (every live-long day)
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[] rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow

Total so far: 9

[] rain
[] wind
[] crossing hanging bridges (wheee!)
[x] death
[] heaven
[x] being robbed
[] falling
[] clowns
[] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes

Total so far: 14

[] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[x] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school (FUN!)
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[x] becoming blind ( with my eyesight, I'm practically blind >_< )
[x] becoming deaf (GUUUU!)
[x] growing up (didn't you ask this already? Wait, you didn't)

Total so far: 18

[] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[x] blood (faint at the sight of it)
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat (I like the coca cola ones)
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[] falling in love
[] super secret

Final Total: 20


If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counselling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it "I'm afraid of 20 out of 72 common fears.".

^ Is what it says, but I don't wAnna. The title is what I want to title it.

I tag Honey-senpai and any of my watchers who's bored with their summer holiday already!

Cookies for those who read this to the end!